State of the Mind

I've had all these New York City pictures since, like, whenever we went -- September or whater -- so I thought I'd put them online for someone besides me to see. It's not all the pictures -- just the ones that passed a very light selection process. Meaning, it's most of them...

Here's a nice one I forgot.

Sandstorm is going well. I think I've got the hospital room problem figured out, more or less. We're filming a scene with Eric and Mr. Borland this Friday. Nothing terribly challenging, but it's always nice to get stuff done. I half enjoy this process and half want it to be over. It's really hard to make a film this way...without money, that is. Everything, everything is a struggle. I've got everything we've done up until now edited. I feel like giving myself the producer credit with all the work I'm doing, but I'd much rather give it to someone else...I'm very much looking forward to March where we've scheduled a bit of a break. Time to regroup. Right now it feels like things are kind've slipping out of my fingers. One week at a time, one week a time, one week at a time. My new mantra. Honestly though, I can't imagine a better way to spend the last year with my friends. Making something this big. Finally following through on a project. When it's done...it's going to be great. Like...I'm excited. Like...this is big...nobody my age makes movies this big. I hope this is a good omen for my future in the industry. I'm not even saying it's prefect...there's a lot of stuff I wish we could go back and do differently, but I'm going to save my strength on finishing this movie and save that other stuff towards the next one.

I'm slowly accumulating the entire series of Gundam Wing on DVDs...more or less illegally. At least I'm not downloading them...I'm getting them from Netflix initially. That's like a step towards legality. Not that it matters. I'm hoping to do that 49-episodes-in-a-row all-nighter Dan and I have talked about for years. Four DVDs to go and we can do it.

On a more personal note, I'm really drained about highschool. I think I'd have given up totally, but Mr. Borland is often very inspiring, and my college-age friends tell me that it's hard to get a good work ethic back once it is gone. I'm excited to leave. The way I see it...good or bad...I'm going to have a pretty exciting life. I know it's not good to wish away time, but, man am I ready to move on. And yet I'm going to miss a lot of people...I've had the pleasure of spending pretty much my entire memory with a small handful of the same people. It's going to be very, very strange next year without them. Such conflict. But, seriously, it's life. I'm not going crazy over it. It's probably because I expect the closest of us will probably see a lot of each other...especially in the next few years. Not as much, of course, but...some. It's not a cold turkey kinda thing.

So, yea, the prevailing mood is: anxious, but the good anxious. I have a lot to look forward to...and I've always been an advocate of new experiences.