Static

It's been a bit of time hasn't it? It always seems that when you have the time to write about yourself there is very little to say and when stuff is actually going on (that is worth recording) there is little ambition to record it. That's not suprising. It makes perfect sense.

Musical is an up and down sort of thing. Currently it's not going so well, but there have been quite a few good periods between now and the last time I wrote here...although, ironically, I was annoyed about it then too. I've got a lot of work to do, but at least I know what I have to do and the guidance is excellent. Sometimes. Things are going to come together nicely very quickly, I think. There are many parts of the show I feel are in performance shape...some parts aren't even comparable to that. It happens. We're motivated this year, I think. We'll see. There are lots of obstacles may prevent the show from being as good as it can be, but whatever. That's life. Show business. Blah, blah, blah. Or I could be totally wrong. It might be amazing. What do I know?

The movie is going amazingly well. I'm so excited about the last few days of filming. We got the dreaded hospital room scene done with only minor difficulties and we're nearly back on schedule. We may even film the other hospital scenes in the Foreman Center because the hallways look rather hospital-esque. My motivation often wanders when it comes to this film, but I feel that overall it'll getting done...we're through some of the hard stuff and it's starting to take shape. Plus, if I have one skill it's editing...and being creative in fixing problems. That's what I was told over the summer anyway.

I've been getting more sleep lately, which is adding to the increased general happiness about life. I'm also relearning how to relax and let things happen. I used to be very good at that. Dance class could be worse. I'll hold off on judging that until I've experienced more of it, however. I think, pretty much, I'm settling in to senior year, finally. I plan on enjoying what's left and really taking advantages of highschool-age advantages. While keeping on this movie and everything else, of course. I'm looking forward to Dan being done with swimming too.

The only thing that's kind of rocky is the whole school thing. I imagine my grades are slipping...I wouldn't know...I'd have to go to class to find out. Mr. Borland called us out on it, but hopefully we'll learn from it and it'll be water under the bridge...or something.

So, yea, for the moment things are okay. Not perfect. Okay. Perfection is a pursuit anyway. Wise people say that and I'm forced out of respect to politely agree. Last year was...rough...but I think the things that can be repaired are. Maybe I'm more independent now. Maybe not. I'm just glad to be content with the present. I so rarely experience that, but it's here.

I can't wait for break next week. I break up the school year into phases that are bordered by breaks. The beginning of the year until Christmas break is Phase I. Phase II is from Christmas break until February break. Phase III is my favorite part of the year...in between February break and Spring break. It always goes fast and I'm usually at my happiest then. Spring break to the end of the year is always a real pain, but...who knows...we've got a lot of stuff for the movie scheduled so it might be all right. Or the worst ever. I'll wait and see.