Martial Absense

I was watching Seven Samurai the other day and I've been feeling bummed about the lack of martial arts study in my life at the moment ever since. Last fall I just sort of stopped going to class and haven't gone back. Before that I'd been pretty off and on about going, though I was at least practicing enough to make up for it. Now I don't even practice that much. I'm sure my skills have completely vanished by this point. I liked it better when I was good. School and activities of various natures just got in the way. I should've gone back this summer, but I felt awkward since I didn't even tell my instructor I was going to stop. I just stopped. It's been so long I don't know what's going on. Is the school even there anymore? Who's the assistant instructor now? How many students are there? What ranks are all my friends from there? By how far have my rivals surpassed me? Damn it. I miss my instructor. He was a defenite role model in my life. I can't believe I was selfish enough to drop it like that.

Maybe I'll take something in college. Ugh, I don't want to go back to Sifu Mark having taken another form after leaving for two years. Dilemma!