Three Moods

I've been trying to finish this play all morning. I've been writing it for this contest at Geva where the winners get a stage reading of their play. There's no other prize, I don't think, but that is more than enough for me. It makes me want to pursue writing more than I used to. I mean, writing is the part I'm really good at it. Or at least, the part that I'm best at, even if to say I'm good at it is a stretch. Everything else, in regards to filmmaking for me, is made up for by the writing. It only makes sense that I should pursue the writing aspect more than anything else. We'll see. I might end up transferring to the dramatic writing program at the colleges I've applied to.

Musical has been weird. I want to say it's improving, but it's really hard to tell. Yesterday was pretty good (the pit joined us finally) but everyone is so anxious and stressed out of their minds that it's hard to exist without upsetting someone. I'm content with it. I was about to say that I'm looking forward to it being over, but I'm not entirely. I still have the desire to do a really outstanding job, and I'm going to need all the days I can get to work towards that. Any more days than we currently have and I think I'd just run out of steam. I'm tired, burned out, and the work from other aspects of my life is piling around me just waiting for musical to be done.

The one thing that I really like about musical is that it really passes the time between February and April very quickly. It's so busy that you don't have time to wish school was almost over. Then there's Chicago to look forward to, then Florida, then working on the movie. This year is pretty much over. I can't wait for it to be July, editing leisurely, working a little bit, golfing, writing a lot, knowing where I'm going to college.

I'm pretty nervous about the movie. We're very far behind on schedule and we haven't really gotten together to plan anything out for the weeks after musical is over. We're going to have to explode out of the gate to get this thing done on time and there are still some tricky scenes to organize. We've all gotten, myself more than anyone, very lazy about it to the point where whole days go by that I don't even think about it. I want it to be good, but I just don't have the energy to consider that too. I want to play piano more too, but I think that's out of the question at the moment.

But I'm really proud of this play. I don't think of my self as a social commentator, but I should because it's all I ever seem to do. I hope it gets picked. That'd be a nice confidence booster, I guess. We'll see...it won't make or break me either way. I still feel like the three characters are just the same person in three different moods, if that makes any sense. That's how it reads to me. I'll keep on trying to fix it, but if I can't whatever. I'm young I still have a lot of time to get good at this stuff. At least I'm worried about it, right?